In Remembrance

So today marks the one year anniversary of my grandfather's death!

How am I feeling? - Sad is one way to describe my emotions, also there is still a part of me that feels guilty for not feeling as sad as I did when my grandmother passed and that makes me feel worse!

I don't know if it is because my grandmothers passing was a complete shock and so for me it was just a matter of time before my grandfather went to be with his "Darling Kate" or if it is because the bond between my grandmother and I was stronger!?

Either way, I loved, no LOVE both dearly and not a day goes by that they are not in my heart or thoughts! I miss them more than words can express, and just pray that I can make them proud!

Mother Amongst Many Angels

Mama 1924 - 2007

Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of my late grandmother’s death.

It came around so quickly, that I still don't think I’ve fully come to terms with it. I can remember the evening we got the news like it was yesterday! – Watching my mum stand in the hallway and then suddenly drop to the floor as her legs give way, is a sight that will live with me forever, and the sound of her crying as you hear a part of her heart rips is something I never want to hear again.

How does one get over such a shock!? They say the pain will ease with time, but it’s been a year and I still feel the same. I loved my grandmum with all my heart and even writing this brings tears to my eyes.

I’ve been thinking for weeks what to write as a tribute, but it almost feels insincere, so I thought it more appropriate to copy what I wrote for the funeral last year as it’s still very much how I feel today.

This is a loving tribute, to a loving grandmother.

No words can truly give justice to express the love that I feel for you nor the loss of your unexpected death. You were truly one in a million, and I want you to know that your love was so remarkable, there is and always will be sunshine around me when I think of you. I am forever thankful to have had you in my life.

Although you are no longer with us in body, your presence and love I shall carry in my heart for eternity.

Much more than a grandmother, you’re an angel heaven sent me. I know I’ll see you again, but for now rest in peace.

The title for this post was the title of my cousin’s tribute for our grandmother and I absolutely loved it as it’s so true.

Mama, I miss you more today, than I did yesterday, but less than I will tomorrow, you will forever be my Mother Amongst Many Angels.

...I'll be back after this short intermission.